well... can't post on FB... I know that I have driven everyone away... I used to have friends... I let my illness consume me and no one seems to be able to see the good I have done. the past years have been hell and I wish I had a way to make them see that I am hurt. I feel like I have lost everything. I have been trying to work so hard on controlling what is actually controlling me. An uphill battle but I keep trudging... only to be hurt over and over. I can't be nice any more... it doesn't make a difference.