so difficult

Well... therapy yesterday was very hard. We are still dealing with my childhood. It is a struggle... even from the physical and mental abuse I still feel guilty for cutting myself off from my parents. My therapist says that I have to. He understands the guilt but the lies and evilness I was fed as a child has lead to where I am now. It has made me weak when I wanted to be strong. I blame myself for everything and my entire self image was built in the childhood years. He links all the lies I was told as a child ( fat, stupid, gutter trash etc) makes it difficult if not almost impossible for me to believe any thing else. It is going to be a long road. thank goodness I have steve to hold me up in the worst of times