wow

Wow... how long has it been???? So much going on. I don't even know if but anyone but Amy (hugs)
Life has had some dramatic twists and turns... moved... happy with the new house.... it feels like home. Still a bit to do but the big stuff is over. I have had a long time "friend" tell me to 'eff off'---- that was devastating--- but what can I do??? I will miss this person but it is their issue and I have to learn that letting go is best for me.....
I just don't understand why... yes we had some issues but I tried to make up for that and was flat out rejected.... this is why I don't let people get that close to me... I am the one that ends up hurt. There are times... (alot of times) when I feel that there really are very few people that I can count on. anything else is superficial. Good luck to this person...they are going to need it. I WILL NOT beat myself up over this person acting like I am the scum of the earth after all I have done.... they have made no effort... what kind of friend is that????
Yes the issues we had came up when I had been drinking... my bad.... but this person should have known that PTSD is such a hard illness... because they supposedly have it... but I honestly think this person had no clue what it really means.
So that is my thought for today....