been a while

Well it has been awhile since I did this.... busy packing and other crap. This has been very stressful and has caused me some issues... but I am coping with them. It has caused some tension in the house... working my ass off --- only to be told that I might have to re-do it all again. I need a little help and really not getting it- I know steve works hard hours and has been putting in overtime to help manage things... but there are somethings I can't do myself.
I know... bitch and moan... But sometimes we have to do that.... some of us more than others.
I am nervous about the move... I don't take change well. But it has to be for the best to get me the hell out of this shit hole town. Maybe then I will be able to go outside at least without worry. I hope it aides in my "recovery".
Well 3:30 am... steves alarm just went off so I should cut this short....

I wonder sometimes why I bother.... What is the point.... I can't conform because that makes things worse. If I had fought sooner I wouldn't be in this predicament. I should have fought years ago.... then I wouldn't be a wreck now.