OMG

So I am not really sure what I want to blog about... I have had a good couple of days. But I have to go off my meds wed for treatment friday.... so that is always a good time. SIGH....
Its been good to see the girls and of course Micaiah so much the past month...
I got an email from a FORMER friend the other day and I was LIVID... #1 I didn't know how she got my email #2 we haven't spoken for over 13 yrs.... she became very rude and ignortant and quite frankly vicious one day at a birthday party. She made me cry and I was so devestated because we were so close (I thought) and I was with her when her baby was born--- and I was with her to hold her and the baby when the baby passed away and then a month or so later she turned on me and called me everything but a child of god. Turns out my friend Kelly gave her my email --- I was very upset and she told me she gave it to her because she thought it was sweet.... the whole time I was thinking "i didn't hear on the news the hell froze over" cuz that is the only way I would ever speak to that sow ever again.
You only get one chance to burn me.... after that there are no more chances EVER.
Its very bewildering to me how many times that has happened to me.... I of course blame myself for the fact that I get burned.. I get too close too fast and I give my all then it comes and smakes me in the face. There is a reason -well lots of reasons- that I have trust issues... I never trust my own choices- How can I when this has happened over and over.
So I guess that is the end of my rant for now.... another one later of course....