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Well lets see what trouble I can get into or cause with this blog....
I went out in the front yard all by myself twice yesterday.... I was VERY proud of me. Anyone who has a clue as to my struggles... especially in this community knows that was a pretty big feat! :)
I was thinking a bit about how I ended up this way... from childhood through all the injustices etc at the various places I have had the misfortune to be employed. I wonder if it was building all these years and then the whole Linda trying to kill me etc and then the joy of the job w/ the army just made it go KABOOM!
I am grateful for the people that I have now... they may be 'virtual" relationships but its the best I can do or have right now.
I never thought anyone would 'get it' but by some twist of fate I was able to find people that do get it. We all came by it in different ways but the result is the same....
Still missing our little guy- But what can you do.... they are trying to get comfortable with their little family... and we all know that is not easy.... those little tiny things don't come with instructions. It will all work out.
well thats what I have to say for today. Have been enjoying skype... spent 3 hours on it with a chap from Algeria. Its fun because he is working on his english and I have to talk to him mostly in french. I cheat and use a translator but it is helping me brush up on my French. :)
Just one more note- people come and go... eventually we get used to it. If they step away from you at first it is hard not to blame yourself... but we have to realize they are making their own decisions and have to deal with the consequences. (not you sissy-just so you know)