Well Steve got the library painted yesterday and it looks awesome... I just sat on my pitty pot and felt sorry for my self. I am in another deep depression.... got a letter from those bastards at the MEPS wondering what my 'INTENTIONS" are.... well they have already filled my position what the hell do they think my intentions are. Not to mention the letter was FULL of errors on dates etc.... so I fired off one back to them.... Steve made me edit it. He said I sounded 'disgruntled' REALLY????????
I am going to have to go off some of my meds because I can't afford them any longer....
I have been trying to do things to clear my mind and soul and trying to have little accomplishments that help me see that I am not such a loser only to be knocked flat on my ass and have my face rubbbed in the mud. I wonder why God has abandoned me. NO LECTURES.... It is my feelings and I am entitled to them.
Any way .... here are the 25 'random' things about me that everyone is so gung ho on.... probably nothing new... but it was all I could come up with at 3 in the morning....

25 THINGS ABOUT ME:
1. I used to tell my kids they were from their dads 1st marriage.
2. I used to tell other people my kids were adopted (cuz they look NOTHING like me :) )
3. I treat my dogs, fish and ducks like people
4.I met steve at 14, engaged at 15 married at 17
5. I have decided to only eat one meal a day
6. I don't sleep much even on heavy medication
7. I love to read
8. I may be crazy but I am NOT stupid
9. I hate to be taken advantage of
10.Revenge is the name of my game.
11. I never forgive and I never forget
12. I wouldn't be sad if I was diagnosed with a fatal disease
13. I am very spiritual.
14 I had alot of my memory wiped out and it is difficult for me to remember things
15. I keep meticulous records just in case I need to use them.
16. I never knew what I wanted to be when I grew up
17. I have been a custom finisher in a cabinet shop, run a daycare, owned my own business, and been the vice president of a credit union among other things
18. I will kick your ass and not think twice about it if you get in my way1
9. I can and have restored antiques for a living
20. I have lived all over the world
21. I don't feel likeable
22. I started to write a book once
23. I have been married and a mother more than 1/2 my life
24. I grew up on a small farm
25. I hate camping